Sharika Roland

Soap Lake has a lot of rocks. they are Lava rocks and are everywhere you look. Climbing up a rocky hill can be tricky as you slide down every few steps. one step up and slide down three.
You have to keep going up and try again.
It is a weird feeling to be falling down a lot. just cant get the momentum to go straight up.
It is like climbing a mountain of marbles.
There is something else like that.
new ideas.
you get one and it seems easy enough and totally doable but then here comes the slide when you experience the reality of playing out your plan. some things are beyond our control and will slide you down. but you cannot tell when that will happen . You just cant see the unstable places until you place your weight on them. When you find them you are already sliding down the hill again.
But what is the most true thing is this. You are going up the hill in the first place because it is tricky. anyone can go up a grassy hill.
But climbing up a marble rock hill is way way way more fun.
It seems impossible but eventually you get to enough steady rocks to get up. You have to figure out ways to trick the rocks to overcome the slide. you have to use your whole body to get up. You have to get cut up a little and you have to be scared a little when you look down but when you are done it is very satisfying. and you want to do it again.
so even though you have to redo your idea a million times to make it work. that is the fun of it. climb that hill ,beat that sucker down. You Can do it. eventually! what is the alternative. look at the hill your whole life. and then die!

the thing about resistance training of your body is threefold.

One your mind follows your body

two doing some resistance training makes you want to do more resistance training

three and most important is it gives you drive.

without having drive you are stuck with excuses that you make up for yourself  explaining away why things are the way they are.

Maybe you have had a hard time in your childhood  or have experienced some horrific accident later in life and feel stuck because of it.

every obstacle in our lives is just resistance training.

Most people run away from pain but if you learn to run to it you will be able to slay a multitude of dragons.

The Bible says to embrace your yoke and struggle with it until you are strong,

If you help a chick that is breaking out of his shell by opening it for him then he will die. He needs that struggle to get the strength to live.

Grapes that have to struggle in poor soil are sweeter . that is why the French people don’t irrigate. they let the grapes work to be alive.

You have to think like this and you will always be able to use what comes your way. If you don’t then anything will kill you either emotionally or physically. Teach your children this when they are old enough to understand. show them examples in the world.

They are everywhere. Truth is everywhere spelled out if you just take the time to look!

I am doing resistance training. It is arm shaking and leg aching hard. And it is fun.

I was thinking why it is fun and suddenly attractive to me. It is because it is practicing pushing away sloth in my life. And now I am seeing it everywhere.

Instead of a bother it is just a challenge and delight because soon very soon life will be smaller with less mobility so it is best to give it your all right now. No matter where your now is , its all you have. now. time to trim the fat in my life everywhere and get cracking to a new level. its all anyone has and that is enough.

Let me tell you a story. A friend of mine who is an artist was having pretty good success in her field for several years. She kept winning awards at all the art shows and she was selling on a pretty regular basis. A small art festival was happening in her area so she decided to have a booth. She set up and the day did not turn up any sales. It as disappointing to say the least. However one person saw her at that little art show and approached her about representing her work in his gallery.

That one connection changed her life. She went from small potatoes to big ones almost overnight. She made 30 thousand dollars in one year from him selling her work. 30 thousand was just her cut so he sold 60 thousand dollars worth of work in one year. I am telling you this story because sometimes we cannot see value in what we are doing — right away. Sometimes we think it is a waste of time. But you never know, somebody may find you because you have your work in a restaurant and they may be a broker and they might have been looking for someone like you all their lives.

It is always a thrill to create anything. it is so much better than just thinking about doing it. Even if you do something that is subpar”who cares?” it is not the end of the world.
it is the beginning of the world.
Ha that is what just doing it is about. Even if you do a mud mess when it should have been a painting,,, get up brush yourself off and start again.
The depression comes when you finish , so never never finish any project. Make it a big project so it will take a lifetime to get done.
My husband and I have a little house that is a rental and we were making plans for fixing it up more than it already is .
Way more. We want to turn it into a jewel box complete with diamonds and emeralds. IL have never seen a house with this, so now is the time to do the front door all jewels. What a delight to come home to a jewel encrusted front door.

also I want to paint it deep purple and plant a lavender farm in the front yard.
We like to plan. It is more fun than not planning.
You only live once. be outrageous because what is the alternative. not be outrageous. ug how boring!