I went into the regular doctor so see why I suddenly had a heart murmur and long story short I have an aneurism in the aorta 🫀. And it’s big enough that the cardiologist suggested not doing open heart surgery but just live my life.
walking out of his office with my husband was surreal. What do you do next. How long before it explodes . How do I tell my family and what do I tell them.
It’s so unreal that it feels like I’m talking about somebody else.
I have a friend who had her 13 year old son die in a freak accident in his fort. I do not know how she lived through that grief. She told me she kneeled down by his body and thanked God for 13 years she had with him. How did she do that ,and still breathe.
I’m glad I have that in my head to reflect on. My husband asked me which I’d rather go through this little thing or that huge thing. It’s not like I haven’t had a long life and I really never had to go through much trauma.
‘maybe this blip is my thing to go through.