Dust

The hardest thing to do is make yourself do what you don’t want to do. A sort of inertia sets in and the very thought of moving in a different direction is difficult . It is always easier to keep doing the same thing. You know it , it is safe.

it is familiar. Its you. Your identity.

It’s hard to get cold and hungry and feel the pain of not knowing what will happen next. The anxiety of the unknown , untested, foreign.

The desert is like that. It is uncomfortable to actually walk through it.  Much easier to just drive by. But hiking through it is a  thing I would rather put off.

till another time. When it gets quiet, you have to listen to your fears and the doubts that come up.

Unfortunately nothing good comes from being safe . It’s a trap. A death trap.

 

Ash Wednesday

I was watching a you tube video about being an artist  by  Ann Rae. She said that if you can put into words what you do and why, you will be able to communicate it better. How can people know what you are all about unless you can verbalize it.

Three months ago I started on this problem. The words are hardly easy to find. It makes me sick to my stomach to think about them . They keep flying away into a vapor before I can see them.

I decided to do a blog on the process of verbalizing why I paint paintings. The best  place to find a deep place, a deep answer is the desert. Its quiet in the desert and hot and you have nowhere to hide.

So Lent starts today . Lent is  is a desert . The desert makes you face things you don’t want to face. Being an artist and doing Lent is a good thing. . Ash Wednesday

Catholics wear ashes all day today to show they have entered the desert . Day one.  The next forty days blog  will be my ashes on my forehead .

My Grandchildren

I am grandmother to two children. They are the sunbeams of my life most of the time and the actual reason I started to write this blog.

My Grandmother and Grandfather left a huge impression on my life and fortunately I remembered this when I had my own. The one thing I wish I had from them though is a book on their thoughts and wisdom and feelings . What a gift that would have been.

So that is why I started this blog. When my gks are old enough to care all the things that are important that might help them for later on will be here. At least a wide assortment of ideas that maybe they can learn the easy way and not the hard way like I did.

It really saves so much time to listen instead of learn through pain. Pain is the most vivid teacher of wisdom but listening could be  a little less dramatic.

What I mainly have learned is that life is over in a second so you better not waste a minute of it lolly gagging.

what you need to know

Nothing. You need to know  nothing to do art. No method or technique or style or anything  else is required to do art. Art is big. It is too big to push into little boxes. I think it would be great to have a group of never did any art in their life people do some art. Art will find you. You don’t find it. You cannot tame it. If fact once you have tamed it becomes rote. I cannot tell you how many times I have forgotten this. This knowledge is almost like a vapor. Here to see and then gone as quick as it came. Selling paintings sort of gets in the way of doing art because when you sell something then you try and do it again. But you can’t. It won’t feel the same. Can you tame a wild lion?  and if you manage to somewhat make him less wild , haven’t you killed him. No art is free. all you can do is make art everyday and wait for the wild animal to show up. When it does you have enriched the world with something only you could have done because you were where it was.

 

What you need

You need to show up. Nobody does art unless they need to. You can’t not do it. It makes you do it. It is not like you choose to do it. If my assertion that you don’t need to know anything to do art then it might follow that everyone would do it because how fun is that. You get to fool around all day.

but not everyone does want to do it. That is because it is not easy. It is hard to show up everyday and work and face it. At least it is hard for me and I cannot not do it. So it must be hard for everyone to slog it out. You can’t make it turn out great so you have to keep showing up and paint or write lots of bad things before the good one comes out.

You need discipline , courage, stamina, determination when it is easier to just do something else. anything else.

Art is not easy, art is a miracle when is appears. Art is euphoric when you get to be the one it comes through and it can be like agony when it does not show up.

I like to think about Edison, trying over and over and over times 1000 times to get the light to work. What kept him going?? Why did it take so long?? What tremendous courage to keep going.

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