People usually say that you must have been inspired when you do a really good work. What does inspired mean? You got a good idea, or you were influenced, or what?? How can you be inspired?
Its a trap. Inspiration is nothing more than showing up for work. Do what you do and keep doing it. The best best best paintings I ever did were done when I had nothing left. When I had no idea what to do and I was sort of sick to my stomach that I did not have anything and sort of anxious and weepy and really upset and sleepy and stuck.
When I come to the end of all my great ideas then and only then does something really great get done. Inspired? just the opposite. That is when I find the thing that I am looking for. two seconds before I throw myself off a bridge. So inspiration is kind of a constant suicide to get you out and something bigger than you in.
So when you are upset and cranky, something good is coming. you are just experiencing the death rattle of your ego. It puts up a fight every, every, every day.
